yep, another one

what is it about a bit of ice that makes everything so freaking pretty on the trees and bushes? it's horrible on the streets yes. dreadful to walk in the slush and ice, treacherous to drive, but the trees, too pretty!!

i read 100 pages today. i wrote nothing. not one word! i had ideas. i woke oozing with ideas. but at night, now, when it's time to write cos i have time now and the inkling, there's nothing but the mundaneness of the day. the lunches, laundry, wiping, dishwasher, emails about meetings and trying to figure a way to be at robotics and girl scouts and pick up cookies and watch a movie and sleep at the same time.

and too much caffeine makes me woozy.

and the cookies need to GO!

errands to run tomorrow, not done today due to the delay. so will rush around in the morning, maybe get a minute to read more or write a word or two!!

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winding up...

i've found it difficult to write the last few days. using the photo as a prompt helped a bit but the actual writing of the text only works if i sit down and type it out! i write a lot more in my head than ever makes it to the page. and even writing on my ipod hasn't helped since it never flows properly.

i am happy to feel calm again. even when the kids were wild last night, i was relaxed. i like sitting in this room to write, i will be happier when the menchildren clear off the old computer and i have more space. but for now, it works quite nicely. i have photos in view, flowers and a nice neat area! :-)

attempts to finish the book this weekend have failed. i ended up playing online instead.  which means that i either do not want to read, can't be bothered to read, or am not that interested in the book.

perhaps if i set aside a portion of each day to actually WRITE and/or read. an hour? just free writing would be helpful. on any one topic or photo prompt. posting it to the blog is not necessary.

i like and don't like that i have no audience with this blog. it allows me to say more or less than i want. no feedback is good and bad as well. years ago when i blogged more regularly and actually participated in the blogging world, i felt far too attached and obligated to reply to my friends' posts. and then i lost the real reason for the writing and blogging, to share a bit or me that i am unable to share with anyone in my real world.

a friend mentioned to me just the other day that she doesn't share enough with her spouse, family or friends. and that because of this, she feels her life is suffering. she said she needs to reveal her soft side more often. whereas i feel that i reveal my soft side far too often and am figuratively smacked for it a lot more than i ought to be. so i have reined in my "soft side" and she yearns to let hers out. she and i have much in common, but in different ways. i still think that my own best friend is myself. the only one who understands me is me. no one else truly has ever gotten me and i know i will never have one true best friend. just lots of friends who know just that small portion about me. one friend for sharing musical likes, another for sharing books, another for mommying, another for cooking, another who gets the history and logistics of my life and so on. some of those friends overlap, some even know one another. but not one of them knows me completely. i hide bits of myself from each of them. do any of them really want to know all about me? do i want to know all about each of them? would that make us too much?

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all at once

christmas day seemed a bit off to start with this year. once my dad arrived, it felt more normal. we all felt his absence the night before, not having him here to read the night before christmas to the kids. he said he forgot he read to them! :-( and then he had to leave early cos of the snow, blah!

i am determined to spend time as a family this week though. we did some things today, not a lot but i think the kids needed a day to do nothing as it were. tomorrow is homework and reading and maybe some games day....and i have boring stuff like bills and laundry!! haha! :-(

the snow will keep most everyone else at home. so much for going out shopping or with my girlfriends to the pictures! maybe i can read some more. i need to finish these last two books for 2010. i wanted to reach a 60 book goal, but fell short :-( oh well!!


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just a few

the birthday has arrived. with a decent amount of fanfare too!! phone calls and emails and wall posts....all very nice and endearing things. a nice amount of love and affection shared is a good thing i think.
and then the pink candle in the brownie with a card, a really sweet and kind touch that was greatly appreciated.
have decided to use "this" as "the" place. and leave out the names of the intended. and keep it unlinked and uncommented upon.
must find a new hiding place for the paper journal. the place it was living was wonderful. but now the items it was hid behind have been relocated. and the far away place is just not working. the thing is that i want to jot down little notes, for here or for writing ideas, but the journal isn't really the place for that either. so i need to drag out the tweety notebook again. it's in the car. perhaps they all need to live in my handbag.
am anxious to finish the current book and move on to a new one. am getting bored with it. don't think i will do the book club selection just yet, esp if we're not going to meet for that till august (or later). so maybe another newer book. or the e-mac book.

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