the party's over

or so it seems....another weekend nearly over. another month dragging by! the warmth really spoiled us for the cold. winter needs to be GONE already. i long to sit outside again, not have layers and layers of clothing. and finally, to feel BETTER!! the sun improves my mood so much. i just want to pin my face to the window and soak it all up.

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just NO!!

omg, this chica is so sick of everyone around her whining and whinging about all the woes of their lives. just get on with it already!! the one at storytime declaring herself mother of the year, then not allowing comment on our lives cos her friend has to adopt? well what about the rest of us?? and then the friend who tells this chica all about not wanting to be a mean girl, but she IS a damn mean girl!! she talks behind our backs, so why are we tolerating her?? and then she takes this chica out cos she complained once about something. and she totally ignores the attempt to apologise! see if this chica even makes the effort next time, get your own ride bimbo!! not gonna happen!!
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facts?

i knew i liked our school so much better than the other one in town. and now i def do!! our kids get so much more, and i realised that's a fact!! it's a shame that all the schools don't work with the kids to get them prepared for middle school. i know things have changed since we started at this school. so perhaps parental involvement plays a part? maybe those parents are less available? certainly both parents in our school work as well, and a few miles hardly makes an attitude change. i'd really like to know.

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thank goodness this week is nearly over. i am really looking forward to a lie in tomorrow and maybe finishing a book or just watching some tv. what a busy crazed week!!!


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wildness contained

i anticipated a craZy chaotic insane day, and it was busy, but it was okay. i mentally ticked off the items that needed doing. each time i did, i felt closer to the end of the day which was meant to finish with a glass of wine. in reality, by the time i was really done, cleared up and organised, it was too late to have the wine and i just went to bed!!
but the shopping was complete, two loads of laundry were done, snacks for girl scouts bought, we got to girl scouts and to the artshow. and it all came together!!
i think the mentally psyching myself up for the day helped a lot. so did listing out all the items i needed to get thru, and then running a pen line thru them afterwards. it's a record of all the things i accomplished in a way!!

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yep..ranting allowed because i can!

nothing to say, no one to say it to, and fed up trying to say it clearly and succinctly. i guess it's just been one of those kinds of weeks!! :-(
lots to do, always. like walking up a down escalator...i have things on my to-do list for every day this week. just trying to tick them off slowly and get some of it all done.
everyone is bugging the heck outta me. i just wish i could get things done without the constant and incessant interruptions!!!
and everything is still irking me, i cannot wait for that to pass!!
and to the gal on fb who was moaning about having to do 6 loads of laundry on sunday cos she was SO sick last week. hello girlfriend, i was sick last week, and still managed at least 2 loads EACH day. cos a cold is not enough to lay me up in bed, like you, who has both kids in school and takes off work but cannot toss in a load a day? who also has her girls to help her fold...
get over it already!!

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vday

another disappointing hallmark holiday! it's like my birthday in a way, i expect far too much and always feel let down. the kids were fine, giving kisses and wishing me happy valentine's day, the girl made lots of cards for us and her brothers, which was sweet. the party at school was fun! i wish i could have gone to the boys' parties though....just not possible.
the flowers helped a bit, but it is what it is, as they say!!

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imagined

there he is again, just at the edge of her consciousness
underneath the reality that she sees
blue eyes
or brown?
he looks away, just enough to catch her attention
not really seeing her but looking out
for her?
for someone?
the bell rings and another walks past
distracting her from the image just outside
the window fogged over and the rain slides down
pools at her feet and runs to the bricks in the centre

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a note, of sorts

write a letter to yourself a year from now. what things are happening right now that you won't want yourself to forget?

she would want to remember the feelings of frustration over not being able to get things done in a timely manner. and the need to have it all done now and not later.

she would want to recall watching her oldest son get taller than herself. and his attitude change from child to adult and then back to child in the blink of an eye. she would want to remember how pretty the snow looked on the ground when it reflected in the very early morning winter sunshine. she would want to remember how beautiful her daughter looked and how proud she was of her when she went up on stage so bravely and gave her reply to the actress on stage.

she would want to remember the winter music concert and how her son was first trumpet and how proud he was of that, and how proud she was! how impish her youngest son was and how truly funny he was as well.

she would want to remember how much her second born tried to make everything work out right and how hard he worked to help his younger siblings get things right. and how sweet he was!
 ~the end~

where's it gone?

finally the end of a long and rather blah week. quiet and calm which is probably good given that next week will be rather busy and hectic. nice to not have any snow this past week and to have some warmer temps as well. saw some sunshine and even the grass is uncovered in places around town!

i know i said i was going to do an image prompt but i just cannot seem to put thoughts to keys on that one, not tonight anyway. this must be my less productive creative week. i cannot even get the words on paper since i am so distracted. it's not ideal, but i'm assuming the mojo will return in a few days. i was writing ahead but that's not been happening much anymore.

i'm like that crazy sleeping tablet commercial -- "if your racing thoughts are keeping you awake", those thoughts just surround me day in and day out.

*eta-- and now the darn posts aren't posting when i email them so i have to come back and put copy/paste them from my email, they're getting lost in email oblivion apparently, blah*

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