yeah, yeah...back

doing well, still feel that out of control feeling. want to get past all of that. have stopped the daily comments in my paper journal. not sure why i only feel the need to write down the negative items. or perhaps it's just out of sight, out of mind? but i cannot leave OUT my paper journal, little eyes and all that. it's out of view, but still reachable to me. IF i remember!!

today was more pleasant than i expected. the playground was hot, of course. it was in the low 80s when we got there. but it was somewhat shady where i sat. and i had friends to chat to. small girl had friends to play with. except for the odd woman who came out to chastise us for sitting on the swings. yeah, okay! sure, we'll move our bums!

and the dumb ticket. blah..not signed well. but signed nonetheless.

trying to feel calm. hard when so much is perceivably going on. and happening. and that needs to be done.

am trying to work out how to get it all done tomorrow in the short allotted period of time.
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stillness

feeling slightly less crazed today. hurray. but still edgy and emotional. when will it stop!!! have been writing more and doing more other things to keep me distracted. but i get caught up. hate that!

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had extra time today, which was nice. still didn't get enough done. there is always so much. am intrigued by the scottish references through out. and am trying to support the new group. will see what happens with the new query.

beans are evil, bad bad beans

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fun and pleasant day today. sunny and bright in the morning. no time spent outdoors really. but quiet and calm and mellow nevertheless. wonder if i said too much. hard to tell. we'll see what happens.

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yes!!

oh and this....lovely!!

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i did it. i just hope it doesn't backfire on me. i hope i can put together a fun group of people and keep it going. the other one just does not work. too confining and controlling. how does one find new friends and fans though.

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what?

i feel so unmotivated. i wish that would pass. somehow living in fantasy-land seems so much more interesting than what has become my real life. it's bright and sunny outside today and i cannot even be bothered to sweep off the porch to sit outside. i shouldn't mention that it's covered in building material that's been there for over two weeks now either.
just when i think i'm having an upward spin, i somehow sink back down into the depths of blah again.
but what IS there to anticipate??

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give it up already

oh my, what is UP with the constant negativity. no wonder she is so darn unhappy all the time. i wanted to comment something totally mean and horrible, but that doesn't go along with my attempt at positive-ness either.
i might just say "have you seen kc in a pair of tight jeans, hubba hubba" ;-) he can shake his little southern bum in my direction any old day!!! :-)

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this bugged me for some reason....i think being called ma'am is a wonderful sign of respect. i guess it bugged me a bit when i was younger. but it's either ma'am or miss...and both are quite kind!

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the day after

had a lovely time...just me, huge glass of wine and a couple of fun scots! even if i didn't sleep much...it's okay :-)

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