she just doesn't get me and i'm sort of disappointed. although i am not totally surprised. the things we had in common, we still have in common, but the other stuff, she just doesn't fall into those interests. so i will just take a step back. having the holidays as an excuse will work for a bit, as well as the weather and general winter-ness with germs and what not.  so with any luck, i won't have to actually "see" her again until maybe feburary!! ;-)


the girls' event on sunday sort of surprised me, though sometimes i feel attacked on that front at times as well. i think perhaps i am just overly sensitive still this month, as i feel that way, on edge and on the ledge as it were. nothing seems to be coming together and nothing is going as planned.


but i will keep putting one foot in front of the other and doing my best to get by each day. get myself out of bed in the morning and get thru all of my tasks and events for the days and weeks. until something interesting comes along to brighten my life again.

~the end~

putting it off

so i just don't get that message! why tell us your woes with the old man and then turn around and accuse us of lack of support? how much hand holding does she need. and why does it seem to fall to me when the best solution for us/me was to walk away & ignore. addressing it never did an ounce of good, that's for sure!! and at this point in my life i honestly cannot be arsed about it!! really now!!
so i have postponed replying, which i know is not the way to go. when it arrived i was in no mood to comment, i was just livid over it. i feel better today and will write a short something back.

~the end~

monday once more

five children sent off in buses to school -- two very happy, one very grumpy, one rather unwell, one indifferent....

one rather unwell child sent home, but having delivered message to advisor regarding the lack of transcript sent to college of choice! he's back in bed, again, today with stomach cramps. not a great thanksgiving for him, though he did join us for dinner last night, ate a bit, then went to put a computer back together, then came back to eat twice more.

last night after dinner we had game night. we even corralled hubby in to play monopoly deal...then they all, with two more children but less me played whonu.

so now there are two hours to fiddle with. not much i can accomplish in that time, but i will do something i can cross off the list!!

~the end~

yep

sometimes i wonder what it would be like if women ruled the world and made all the important decisions. well except for that crazy chica from alaska!! ;-) i mean, c'mon, all the male posturing, we need to show ourselves and look important. try to look important another way, stop suppressing your countrymen, stop bombing your neighbours. get a freaking clue!

~the end~

a new start?

so i feel good today, which is nice. but i just realised i have less time this week to spare than originally planned! basically only an hour today, and then whatever time i can manage on wednesday with the girl.
so that leaves out anymore christmas shopping, it's a good job i got there on saturday at least. we'll have a few bits and pieces till next monday when i can manage to get to target once more.
at least there's only one lunch to pack this week. it's just like a vacation ;-)
let's hope the rest of the day is just as good as i feel now.

~the end~

totally random

there's a plaid like page on facebook! wtf?
when i flicked the light on for the closet, the dishwasher went on.
there's something about iced wine that makes me happy, esp when it's
been iced on the deck!
today is his birthday and i still think he's totally HOT!
i could happily rewatch every dino episode and be quite happy.
i still pause them at the same places and rewind.
one word, universe, and they ALL say it!!
glasgow kiss, omg, too freaking funny...

the sun goes down

finally a moment sat outside on the deck. and of course the sun is heading toward the horizon and i have missed out on the better part of a day spent outside. but such is the way of my days. is it better to leave all the daily chores, the laundry and now the dishes (since it was me who washed them rather than have a whole mountain of them to wash at 10 pm)? i managed to vacuum too & even watched two shows & read quite a bit of this guernsey book, which i adore the second tome around as well. i feel attached to the characters and the writers' way of describing it all. i cannot understand why anyone would not adore this book!!
~the end~

i wish i had more energy and motivation. i wish i had more oomph. i hate the blah feeling. the "i want to stay at home and do nothing" feeling. all these other moms have such enthusiasm. and i just feel meh! :-(

~the end~

what were you doing

to drivers, when driving please use your indicators when intending to turn or pull over, it really is why they were added to your car. also please try to keep your car off my side of the road when you are talking on the phone and driving. and please don't flip me off for lightly beeping at you since i was trying to avoid you & your huge gas eating car! had you hit me, i would have gladly sued your skinny well coiffed arse! thank goodness one of kept her hands on the wheel.
sincerely,
me

~the end~

that said

reminded of an old friend who has since passed. funny how a moment brings back a feeling or a word from the past.

 ~the end~